Monday, January 26, 2009
choice
as you gaze out of the window
at a field brimming with life
your hands grasping cold hard bars of confinement
you begin to wonder
with the gift of choice
the chance to chart your own destiny
why bind yourself down with archaic rules
with lifestyles that were never meant to be yours?
for you fear of losing control
of losing your moral high ground
that you desire perfection in action
you risk losing the beauty of choice
you never believed in change
in embracing the brave new world
because your world is shaped by duty, by obligation
that you seek solace in gratification and reassurance
i fear imperfection as much as you
i shape my world by responsibility
i feel apprehensive with the lack of control
but i am free, free to lead my life
because i am answerable to myself, my parents, my friends
i am my own lighthouse and beacon
that i will never falter i dare not claim
but i choose to embrace the freedom that i was born with
keeping my secrets ; for her
- 10:06 PM
Saturday, January 24, 2009
a is for attend b
syalah nxt wk field camp. then again now we're halfway thru already! haha. qte fast ah.
bus mrt becoming cheaper sia. must be blue moon pink moon purple moon all going to appear soon. maybe more chiobu in camp will appear also. ah then everyone will be very happy. talking about moon the night sky from range damn nice sia. never see so many stars in the sky before leh. is not the stars you see when pple knock rifle on you la. is the real stars. (unless is one whole armada of planes la) actl qte nice to watch plane also.
funny leh outside world like change a lot in one week la. big news is not too much la but small news like a lot. things like eh? xxx and yyy together already? thot last week they didn't even know each other
the world is really a stage sia. every day this statement seems to be proven more and more correct.
keeping my secrets ; for her
- 11:30 PM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
fall out boys
living in a dream
your only solace being stillness
the piano keys echo in your head
your mind carries you into a white wonderland
here i am
in this place of temporary accommodation
waiting for my destination
for a tale to come true
as you sit alone
in an underground train station
the shadows waving and the lights flickering
the emotions become inevitable
as i look down at a courtyard and across a square, both that are becoming familiar
where many unforgettable moments took place
i see numerous images flicker past me
those of the past, those of the future
keeping my secrets ; for her
- 9:00 PM
Friday, January 02, 2009
life
why is it that we seek structure in chaos, but yet in times of order we crave for anarchy?
should we let love and lust clash under the auspices of morality, or will they guiltlessly mingle in bliss?
does happiness only come to us when we stop looking for it? or is it a pursuit that we are obliged to engage in every minute and second of our lives?
if we lead a life that does not belong to us, do we necessarily lose ourselves and forgo any sense of direction in life? or is it in liberty and freedom that we part with discretion and discard our obligation towards those around us?
do we fill our lives with questions that nag at us incessantly? or answers that we may never find ourselves comfortable with for eternity?
there is a certain tranquility in order and beauty in fragility. and yet it is only in primordial chaos that one finds oneself at ease, and in strength and security that one finds love and admiration..?
keeping my secrets ; for her
- 7:41 PM
