Tuesday, March 17, 2009
honestly, i don't care
as my eyes scathingly pierce
through the walls that hold me in
past the force field that binds me so tight
beyond the cage i so gladly impose upon myself
into the void i yearn to be in
there is nothing worthy of my attention
nothing that attracts me
nothing that sets me free
the playground of my lifelong desires
is nothing but a boring farce
i glare but you look away
i scream but you shut your ears
i scratch but you cannot feel
you, you and you
my heart cannot take such rejection
i need the food of love
the fountain of acceptance
take me into your world
put the final touch to my sculpture
and we are one
but you are not there to witness this moment
you do not exist
none of you
my imagination fights to conjure an image
a picture of all of us together
but it fails miserably
not even the camera crunch it can mimic
no more
but me
and the void
i drown myself in words
surround myself in the written
but words are but words
a human construct
devoid of soul
lacking in emotions
absent is the human touch
missing is that which lies between the lines
i reach far out
but there is none
gasping for companionship
but struck and stuck in this empty tower
the void enlarges
and i set myself further into the dungeon
bound by my incompetency
gagged by my inadequacy
crushed i may not be
but joyous i am not
i fight to not crumble
to run away from the tide that is closing in
sick and tired i am
of fighting to be free
but i am addicted to the greener grass
to that which i do not have
pull me out of my obsession
fill my void with life
until you and i are one
the sun shining on the limitless land
let me see the day of light
melt all the boundaries in my world
and i will be more than happy
lifted out of this chaos i am stranded in
into the tranquil utopia of my dreams
with peace of mind, body and soul
keeping my secrets ; for her
- 5:41 PM
